The Unknown
Well hey I am back!
Nothing really changes that much, I am still that poor, still studying, still holding a part-time job and still having a girlfriend. Grandad's funeral just ended days ago, seriously, those adult arguments were totally like what I watched in the drama. Fuck you thou! Anyway, I cannot wait for my graduation from studies. I am almost tired of studying now! At my age now, I should really think further.
My life, revolves around mostly love. When am I single... is actually not the question. When am I really in love is probably the utmost important question to ask. When it is time to let go, well just let go! I hold almost no regrets for every end of a relationship. I might regret the process but never the ending even years later. There will be nothing like, shucks, who is who is better, I should have treasured. Or shucks, I used to have someone who will be here for me all the times. It ended for a reason! Duh.
Most of the time, I just go my own way. Words still don't mean much for me and people will still notice the mistakes more than the good things one did, so what's the point? Life is still this way, it refuses to let you fall totally. It throws you things that you should know but we all know, harsh facts hurt sometimes so that feeling is inevitable. Later, facts will eat your inner soul slowly and expect you to handle it yourself. There is always an advice about love and I remembered someone said to me, you can accept all the crap is just because you love that person a lot. Is it worth it? What's important is if you're still happy, well those crap doesn't makes you happy and the truth is just in front of you. What makes you think that it is worth? Most of the times, the answer of what's worth, is love and that explain the sentence of "you can accept because you love"
The cycle goes on.
There are times I really don't get some people too! Like one of them, having ego is okay, but what can one person gained from something that just for show? If there's a heart and determination to let the 'show' settle down and slowly disappear, it could have been done. Well but nothing changes, instead, it became much more. As time passes by, all these supposed to be a fact may just deemed to be a lie. Maybe a 'show' is just 'another show'. You know what I mean? Who knows right? At first I thought I had seen what's really complicated. Now I know there are even more complications that I did not know. =_= Never ending.
What I know is still, perhaps when things changes, it gets too late. Nothing will be the same back to how it used to be. If there's a will to change, it could have been done long ago. There are some things that are excusable and really understandable, but really... there are some things which I don't see why. Unless it is not important, otherwise, no excuse. Perhaps sometimes, there is just no good and convincing reason why it didn't change.
