How Does It Feel Does Not Matter Anyway.

Never thought that all these will be haunting me but it just did, flashing back things I did not want to remember. Having to take all the blames when I actually wanted to explain myself so much, however knowing that it is totally impossible. I hated so much to be misunderstood, in the end, I took it all in just for the sake of it. Wishes that never change for others to have a even better, even happier and more worthy than what they had. 

I said it out, It doesn't matter, say what you want to say and I know what I am doing. It doesn't matter, just find that happiness from others. Whatever because I am that bastard, not that you did not know. Those are the only things I could say. That flashback is so vivid... but I felt that fire burning, I know what I am doing just because I got to do it unwillingly. That struggles deep inside me, that arguments and fights just to stand up strong for what I believe in. Who on earth likes to fake out all these kind of situations.. 

Everything happens for a reason. That moment when I finally understood why dabendan used to say, there are things are better to be left unsaid because sometimes people just don't understand even if you did so what's the point? They just do not believe sometimes.Then again, leaving things unsaid is really tough but for the sake of burying all this issues into just one person really saves a lot of troubles. Yes, everything unsaid and I left. It is expected, if I stop and think from others view, it is only reasonable to receive those remarks. Still, taking in whatever comes, just for the sake of 'things to be left unsaid', I have to just have to go along with it. Then again, there is always one wish for every ending. 

Sometimes, one just has to be cruel in order to be kind.